Letting the Universe Be
During one of my thinking-too-much attacks, Jeng managed to calm me down with one line: "You have to let the universe be". I don't exactly know how to do that, but I know that she is right.
Admittedly, I tend to overthink things, analyzing each word said and each event that happened. At times, my mind works like the "Choose your own adventure" books. Several stories are conjured in my head with all the possible endings - the one that I want, the one I dread, and a twisted ending which is neither expected nor feasible.
Maybe, I think too much as a way of preparing myself for all the possibilities. I used to think of just "the now" and I used to always go with Sheryl Crow's "if it makes you happy it can't be that bad". It works to some extent, but that perspective has blindsided me to make a few choices that only caused me hurt in the long run. Defense mechanism kicks in and I now overthink so I won't be caught off guard.
Jeng is right though. The events that are to unfold are out of our hands. No amount of thinking can really prepare us for what is to happen. No amount of thinking can make things turn out the way we want them to. It simply is out of our control.
Ironically, in this lack of control is where life's beauty lies. Imagine if we knew how the story will end. It will be safe but boring. It will be right but predictable...And, life is more than that. It is an adventure, with all the twists and turns. It brings surprises which are to be enjoyed and with each twist, memories which are to be cherished.
To control the uncontrollable is a futile undertaking. So is to foresee the future. Thus, overthinking is a waste of energy and being scared of what is to come is a skewed philosophy. As Jeng would say, there is nothing do to really, but to let life take its course and to let the universe be.
I resolve to do that... And, I, too, will hope.
I will hope that the universe takes me for a great ride...and eventually to a place where I've always wanted to be.
Admittedly, I tend to overthink things, analyzing each word said and each event that happened. At times, my mind works like the "Choose your own adventure" books. Several stories are conjured in my head with all the possible endings - the one that I want, the one I dread, and a twisted ending which is neither expected nor feasible.
Maybe, I think too much as a way of preparing myself for all the possibilities. I used to think of just "the now" and I used to always go with Sheryl Crow's "if it makes you happy it can't be that bad". It works to some extent, but that perspective has blindsided me to make a few choices that only caused me hurt in the long run. Defense mechanism kicks in and I now overthink so I won't be caught off guard.
Jeng is right though. The events that are to unfold are out of our hands. No amount of thinking can really prepare us for what is to happen. No amount of thinking can make things turn out the way we want them to. It simply is out of our control.
Ironically, in this lack of control is where life's beauty lies. Imagine if we knew how the story will end. It will be safe but boring. It will be right but predictable...And, life is more than that. It is an adventure, with all the twists and turns. It brings surprises which are to be enjoyed and with each twist, memories which are to be cherished.
To control the uncontrollable is a futile undertaking. So is to foresee the future. Thus, overthinking is a waste of energy and being scared of what is to come is a skewed philosophy. As Jeng would say, there is nothing do to really, but to let life take its course and to let the universe be.
I resolve to do that... And, I, too, will hope.
I will hope that the universe takes me for a great ride...and eventually to a place where I've always wanted to be.
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