Blocked

I want to write about something, anything really. I want to just let my thoughts flow and write it down as it is - no cuts, no edits... But here I am typing, deleting and re-typing and all I end up with are these empty words.

Maybe I should just sketch...

Guns N Roses

I remember Bobet copying some hard core rock songs into my pc. This was 2 years ago and he claimed that it was "therapy". I found it funny, but to some extent, he was right - the music literally drowns it out...

Currently Playing: "Sweet Child of Mine" and "November Rain"... Perfect!

Gladiator

Nothing beats a war movie. Some win. Some lose. Some die.... just like in love.

As that song goes, "Love is a battlefield".

On a lazy Saturday

The other day, I was watching the final episode of Project Runway (season 1). The top 3 designers came up with their own collection - outfits that have a theme; clothes that tell a story.

Then, I was inspired. I thought of creating a few cohesive pieces and this is how it turned out. For lack of a better title, I'm calling it "Reminders". (All in Watercolor)

Tears

(A reminder to not cry over things that are simply not meant to be)

Wheels

(A reminder that life has ups and downs. If you're down, it can only get better)

River

(A reminder to let the universe be. Sometimes its best to just go with the flow)

Still

Watercolor

Burke

I used to declare that I'm in love with Wentworth Miller. I'd have to make a full retraction. Not because Wenty is no longer hot. He still is. It's just that I chanced upon someone even better.

Preston Burke.

All the girls watching Grey's Anatomy are mostly swooning over McDreamy. I am the exception. I love, love, love Dr. Burke. And no, it's not because he is black...or that he is involved with an Asian gal. Haha. That's beside the point. Throughout season 2, his character just exudes this aura of a real man. I say that for the following reasons:

He is steady. It seems that he is in control of everything and that he'd know what to do in whatever situation.

He is confident. Good at what he does, the OR is his domain. Outside of the OR, he's just plain hot.

He is cultured. Violin fan.

He can dance. Very important. Haha. Season 2 - Episode: "Yesterday".

He is sensitive. Unlike the typical man, he was the one who wanted to define his relationship with Christina. Plus, he spews lines like "You are the most guarded, competetive person I have ever known...and I love you. What the hell is wrong with you that you won't just let me?" *Sigh*

If Preston Burkes do exist in the real world, I want one...Please!

Flip Side

I am guilty. At times, I am guilty of somewhat lacking faith in people. Maybe it's because of several times in the past when I totally let people in and I get burned. I fail to see that most of my friendships are built solidly and I get scared easily...

All the drama aside, I am blessed with people who care for me - geniunely care for me. When I think they're walking away, they're just giving me space to figure things out. When I think they're criticizing my life, they're doing it because they see potential in me - that I can be more than what I think I could be. And when I think they're not around, they're actually silently sitting next to me, waiting for me to reach out.

There's a flip side to everything... and I am guilty of not seeing the good side at times.

I hope I can fix this. I'll work to fix this.