Hands

It is weird how something unreal can define one's mood for the day. I woke up this morning with fragments of my dream replaying in my head. It was so vivid that it left me feeling melancholic...

... I was walking with a friend in what seems to be a park. He reaches out to hold my hand and without looking at each other, we continued walking. I, then, looked down to see the oddest thing... instead of having my palm to his, my hand was closed in a fist while his hand enveloped mine...

According to the dream dictionary: "to dream that your hands are clasped or closed signifies unity, completeness, acceptance or agreement"... and, "to dream that you are holding hands with someone, represents your connection with that person. Your dream may also reflect anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that you are drifting apart."

It was this last bit of interpretation which got to me. Maybe, it's true. Maybe I am scared...

I am scared of losing people who matter.

Felicity

Having slept the whole day to shake off a mean headache, I'm up and about and trying to kill time. Last night was my first "Chinese" night out. Hehe. I went out with Keith and his friends to Velvet. They're a cool bunch but being the introvert that I am, socializing is just a stress. Thus, I ended up with a constant drink in my hand while enjoying the music. The alcohol explains today's headache.

To pass time, I've been watching Felicity re-runs. My fascination with the hunky inmates has been temporarily replaced with the drama of a college freshie, unraveling her innermost thoughts to a ... well, tape recorder. Hehe.

To some extent, I think I can relate to Felicity. She's this highly emotional person, who tends to analyze everything and find meaning in things that happen. At one point, I, too, had a "Ben" in my life - although not as cute as her Ben and not as white. Haha.

Season 2, Episode 2. Ben was trying to keep the relationship casual. Felicity tried to compromise to this set-up and eventually delivered these killer lines:

" I am an emotional person. I feel things. I need to be able to get upset and talk about it. I can't change that. I dont want to... and you knew that, and you still pursued me... which means you want something from me, you're just not that strong enough to have it... which makes you a coward. The saddest part is, you'll wake up one day and realize what you've missed... and it's gonna be too late".

I could have used those lines then. But I guess I still would have gotten an ending different from Felicity's. She got the guy in the end... I didn't.

Long Overdue Cambodia Write-up

(Written: July 5, Posted: July 21)

Air Asia was delayed as usual. After an hour of waiting, our plane finally took off. I didn't notice much though. Between our cramped king bed and the Germany-Argentina game the previous night, Jeng, Nits and I didn't get much sleep. The two hour flight was mostly for catching some shuteye and building up energy for the day of touring ahead.

We finally landed. Greeted by "Welcome to Cambodia" in French, it was very apparent sign of imperial rule. We saved 20 USD for visa costs as Filipinos and Malaysians weren't required to pay for one.

Our driver from the Auberge Mont Royal Hotel, welcomed us with a huge plackard of sorts. Very hard to miss. Hehe. After checking in and settling down, we were eager beavers and started on our exploration of Siem Reap.

Our Hotel: Auberge Mont Royal Hotel

First stop: Floating Village

Highlight: Oppable
A group of Korean tourists were in the same floating resto as we were. I heard one dude in his mid 30s talking to his dad. And I autoamatically whispered "Oppa" (which can actually means "boyfriend" "honey"). Omg, he heard! Haha. Turning to me, he then shifted to English and asked where we were from. I blushingly replied "Manila". Then, fulfilling her dream of talking to a real Korean, Jeng turned to him and bowed: "Anyeaseyo". Totally funny!

Second Day: Temple Tour
It was very "Indiana Jones". Hehe. I felt like touring the lost city. Each crevice and each etch on the wall had a story tied to it.Our very knowledgable tour guide led us through each temple, imparting a bit of history and some myths which have been passed on through the generations.

Highlight: 2007
In one of the temples, I came across a fortune teller. For fun, I decided to give it a go. After giving him my name, my birthday, and handing over my palm for a quick look, he started off saying that I am the only girl in the family, that I'm strong and smart. I was impressed. He went on with predicting my luck in money and in love (this I liked a lot :p). And here's the kicker: I apparently will get married by 2006-2007. At this point, I wanted to say: "Dude. Seriously?!" Haha.

Last Day: Apsara
It was a chill and relax day. We tried the $6/hour foot massage and had a quick nap in the afternoon. Then off we went for a buffet dinner and to watch a traditional aspara dance show.

It was a great holiday indeed... On to the next one - Vietnam, anyone?

Quote

I was cleaning my mailbox and came across this quote. It was sent by Gigi a few months back. ..

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. Know a good thing when you see it, and don't let it slip away. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it."

Cambodia

Cambodia was a blast! It was a different experience. In a way, I think it is better than New York, Germany or those metropolitan places tagged as top must-sees.

As I promised Rocky though, I will be posting some pics from this trip and as I was without a camera, I'm totally dependent on Nits and Jeng for good photos. Thus, the blow-by-blow Cambodia account will have to wait awhile.

Let me say this for now - The trip was great...actually, more than great. It was a historical and cultural journey, coupled with eye-opening realizations about how our way of life can be so similar yet so diverse.

More on Cambodia on my next posts...

*A phat shout out to my dearest Jeng who is alone sick in KL. Get well dear!