So Tired

I woke up at 7, worked out from 730 to 845, prepared for work from 845to 945, and I have been sitting here at work since.

After 4 days of late nights, no workouts, good food and some alcohol, Iguess the body's just on a "health shock". Haha.

I'm tired. And sleepy.

I'm going home early. And sleeping early. Tomorrow will be better.

Little Miracles

Today's little miracles:

1) Getting coffee from San Fran instead of Killiney. The world just got smaller and it suddenly matters where we go now. Haha.
2) Free coffee stamps
3) Sea salt spray and Loreal's out of bed gel, for the new 'do
4) Just being at IKEA, my therapy store - the feel, the furniture, the food :)
5) Sale items at IKEA. Hehe.
6) My ipod shuffle and trusty pair of Nikes - for 60 lucid minutes and an aftermath of endorphins.
7) Lipton Peppermint Herbal Infusions
8) Bonding with Orange :)
9) Marvin Gaye's "Let's Get It On" - Reminds me of jared cotter (and, well, some other black guy. Haha)
10) YB at the veranda with a glass of wine to end the day

It was a pretty cool day. Work is not that bad and I have these little miracles to be thankful for. If I had some enchiladas or chimichangas from Mexicali, then the day would have been perfect. Someone send some Mexicali soon....

Nude

Here's my attempt to sketch the human form. More practice sketches coming based of the book given by Rhea...

Got a New Idea

I always get on a natural high when a creative idea dawns on me. *Smile*.

I have a new project. Actually, it's not really new - just rehashed. A year and a half ago, I had this crazy energy to start writing a "book". After a few months and several entries, I just went on a lull.

Come to think of it, it's pretty good that I took a break. Time and experience has given me more to write about. My current material and the future ones will definitely be written with a fresh and more positive perspective on things and life.

One concept will be the central theme of this "book"... and I just won't spill until everything is ready :)

I dunno when I will finish, or when I'll get to print it...but as a friend of mine would say: "Art should never be rushed."

PDA

These absolutely made my day. Hehe:

(1) MTV for 'PDA: We just don't care': http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9nJaZEqRno.

(2) From Bossip.com: http://bossip.com/2007/02/quote-of-day-john-legend.html

"John Legend with former girlfriend, Brazilian model Danielle Abreu. They recently broke up."

Ladies, there is hope =D

Just Like a Pill

The good thing about an I-pod shuffle is the element of surprise. As it is without a screen display, I just never know what song will come up. My current mix of uploaded songs include a lot of old school hiphop, some 80's, r&b and cool alternatives.

So, I was drinking my cuppa Belgian chocolate from The Coffee Bean, contemplating on the early morning news which I got, and this Pink song comes up... Do you notice how every song seems to speak to you when you feel sad or maybe a little broken hearted? This song is no exception. It's pretty rock-ish but as I listened to it, in my current frame of mind (and heart), the words just gripped me...

I'll think I'll get out of here
Where I can run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better,
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill.
- From "Just like a Pill" by Pink

I have been in this situation a few times in the past. I learned that no matter how much you love someone, and no matter how much you believe that this person is a "can't-live-without", sometimes, the reality is that having this person in your life hurts more than it helps, and at some point, you just have to let go. (Wow, what a run-on sentence).

It's sort of happening again... But, as Rocky (and Beyonce in "Irreplaceable" ) would say... "To the left, to the left" .

Moving on....

Moving On...

I feel a little sad. At some point, people will move in different directions. One day, you are all in one boat. The next, you realize that, ever so slowly, people are leaving one by one and you are left all alone - paddling... stuggling to find your way to this unknown place which you can only hope to be your destiny.

To someone who has a strong sense of attachment as myself, people leaving is never easy. But what can I do - that's life.

People leave... and when they do, one can't really do anything but let them...

V-Day 2007

Throughout the day, I've seen flowers being bought by the dozen, chocolates being delievered, and couples holding hands, oblivious to the world around them. Oh, Valentine's Day!

Mostly, I think that Feb 14 is just a commercialized ploy to get people to buy over prized roses and stuffed bears with shirts which read "be mine". But, then again, I still caught myself going googoo and wishing that I were a part of "in love" land.

Days like these, I can't help but think about my past romances. Hahaha. I guess one mistake I've made before (ok, maybe more than once) is that when things didn't work out, I dwell on the thought that I am not what they wanted. Well, that didn't do much good with regards to healing and moving on.

Shifting perspectives, though, I now focus on what I want. And, simply put, what I want is a guy who is crazy about me as much as I am crazy about him. Given that, I have made peace with the fact that the person I want is not really Mr. ____ or Mr. ____ .

If anything, I am left with excitement as the right guy is somewhere out there, just as excited to meet me as I am to meet him. I know that when that day comes, it will be unbelivably perfect.

So...come Valentine's Day, year i-dunno-when (hehe), I, too, will be receiving roses, chocolates, stuffed bears, and long love letters. Maybe, Mr. Right , being the modern day Romeo that he is, will even have a string quartet serenade me to the tune of some old classic love song with words which are dripping with cheesiness. Haha.

Again... I wait.